Confusion

Con•fu•sion ( P ) Pronunciation Key (kn-fyzhn)n.

• The act of confusing or the state of being confused
• An instance of being confused
• Psychology. Impaired orientation with respect to time, place, or person in a disturbed mental state.
• Disturbance of consciousness characterized by inability to engage in orderly thought or by lack of power to distinguish, choose, or act decisively
• Disorder resulting from a failure to behave predictably
• A mental state characterized by a lack of clear and orderly thought and behavior
• A feeling of embarrassment that leaves you confused
• An act causing a disorderly combination of elements with identities lost and distinctions blended

Confusion.. What a word! I have been treading onto this life for more than 25 years now and everyday when I'd look myself in the mirror I still cannot find myself standing comfortably with the person that I am. For whatever reason, i just feel like there is something more than what I have been accomplishing in the past years. People think that if living is so simple then some genius would have already formulated an equation on how to live life and be successful at it! NOT!

No one has ever lived life the way they expected or even strove it to be. I hardly know a few who have been successful in this quest for happiness and contentment.. And most of them have white hair or no hair at all left on them before they found themselves to be in such well envied state. Living is so complex in itself that I tend to overlook the things that are supposed to be the "obvious" priorities that one has to undertake to be in a state of "nirvana" (in its most respectful sense).

So why is it so hard to behave predictably and act in socially acceptable ways hoping to find happiness in there? Pretty simple actually, its because these there are too many erratic variables involved in our daily activities and interactions. One of which is the one that separates us from anything else, and that is the heart. The emotions that we feel, the actions we take, the consequences we ignore, attachments we commit to.. And more.. All of these burn inside like clashing waves and you are right in the middle, just there like deadwood.

So why are we confused? You tell me.

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